w e d 04.28.04 | 5:15 pm
turn to the left, turn to the right.

wednesday is probably the worst day of the week for me consistently. i get to stand in a lab (for up to 4 hours depending on how fast i work) with bunsen burners, acids, and bases. it's really not as interesting as it sounds. lots of times (lately) it is more about waiting for a solution to turn pink and then turning off the buret and recording the change in volume.

the calculations suck ass the most. the actual in the lab work is cake. i like chemicals but most of the time it's boring shit. no explosions, no open flame. the most exciting thing i've done this quarter was today... neutralizing acid by pouring it into a giant slurry bucket of sodium bicarbonate in which it fizzed, bubbled, and made hussssssh sounds.

"when do i get to set something on fire, tony?" tony is my TA. he grades hard but you can tell he is a smart guy and just grades by the rubric while other TAs let it slide. he wants to help me out. that's cool. sometimes i need help.

it's not like how it is on tv when it explodes in your face and your whole face is black and your hair is burnt off and shriveled and all you are left with is pieces of glassware in your hand. fucking boring.

but it's done for the week! now i get to go dancing with hot pants and go drinking with babe and then coachella on saturday. i'm so excited for that.

not so much for the deathly heat but radiohead, pixies, kraftwerk, rapture, trail of dead, death cab, sounds, jrsr, moving units, sahara hotnights, electric 6, stills, phantom planet, q and not u? and that's only day one. if i had the money i'd be all over both, and i'd pay for demetra and gabe and you too.

i put up pictures outside the front door because it was boring. rawk.

t u e s 04.27.04 | 8:50 pm
ch-ch-ch-ch-changes

time may change me but i can't trace time. i could have seen david bowie on friday had i not gone to las vegas. that made me so sad. so i went out and bought a david bowie cd. and it's awesome.

the weather has been hotter than a crotch out here. even out at the beach i am stripped down to my bathing suit, laying down, and saying "hot damn, it's hot." after about ten minutes i have to go find shade on my balcony where all i do is people watch. people watching is one of my favorite things to do.

i finished my paper and my midterm so i rewarded myself with a long nap today. i don't get to take enough of those. i think the sleep debt i've accumulated is going to catch up to me soon.

i have been completely celibate for more than a month now. lots of people give me guff for this or say that i won't last but we're drinking to my celibacy this friday. if i can make it to the end of the school year, my friends are going to throw me a party.

at which i will promptly end my celibacy? no. homey don't play that. i think the point of my starting it was to stop having meaningless things which i wasn't having excessively anyway. it just made me feel bad afterwards and i didn't want people to get the wrong idea about me.

the key to celibacy is probably not coming into contact with anyone you have already had sex with. now if i want to get into someone's pants who is new, i might even have a real conversation with them first or hell, even go out and do something. imagine that.

m o n 04.26.04 | 1:48 am
fear and loathing in

i am home. goddamn it feels good to be home. i think you can only have so much vice before you want to get back to all that is good and wholesome... at least, in comparison to the city of sin. i got a lot done today considering most of today was spent in a car.

i am wired from the coffee i drank tonight to help aid my chemistry cram. mmmmmm, feels so good to cram. my head is full and i feel decent going into the midterm tomorrow. i could be wrong, but let's just be optimistic, shall we?

i am taking things one day at a time. you know, i'm not the best student but i'm trying to be better. i'm not the greatest person that does everything right all the time, but i work on that too. i try to balance what i want and what is good for me. it's too bad that those two categories don't overlap enough.

demetra is single again. i'm not sure what to feel because i had hoped things would work out. the boy made her happy. but in the end, what is meant to be will be. and i like the kid. didn't know him that well but he seemed nice. i suppose that is how these things go when you are young.

vegas was a blur of drinks and strip clubs and the strip and being on the prowl for cute boys with gabey baby lover pants and claire candy pants. that is also how things go when you are young. i should sleep seeing as how my midterm is tomorrow and i will be writing five pages of glory later today. but my heart's just not in it yet.

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