t h u r 01.01.04 | 4:16 pm
it's the pretty things that we're always breaking

meddy new year! i had a lot of fun last night and i got no sweet loving! sometimes people think you must have sweet loving to have-a the fun. it is not the case. i drank boxed wine. i hit the big o. [beer bong, you dirty bird] twice. i made a full dinner while drunk and made a pact to marry demetra in 2011 if we are both still unmarried.

it was quite an eventful night.

i wish it didn't bother jenni so much... what other people do. it makes me mad when she gets all motherly. just because she never drinks or smokes or anythings. but i am glad that she does not keep confronting me or calling me on it. she tried once and i completely did not acknowledge it at all and then it was all fine.

this is a new year. and i am a new girl. i was about to drop $200+ at neiman's today. i am bad! my new year's resolutions are to:

1. stop wasting money
2. love my body more
3. do the things i want to do
4. stop the boy drama
5. be happy

it's my life. if anyone fucks it up, there's kind of only me to blame here. i just want to be happy and whatever it takes to do that... i am still searching but 2004 could be a good year! i am hopeful.

t u e s 12.30.03 | 11:54 pm
i bet this parking lot has never been full.

so i just returned from a couple days spent in the beautiful yucca valley! it has been my first real brush with a small town. and when i say small, i think my high school... no, my senior class was bigger than the town's population.

why did you go there, you might ask! well, i'll tell ya. my friend's house is in yucca and carloads and carloads of people went up there for few reasons other than getting fucked up. what are you going to do when it is 9 in the morning and you just feel wrong drinking already?

you go to denny's where everyone gives you dirty looks and won't even speak to you (really. and this morning we tried to go again but they ignored us and wouldn't seat us i shit you not.) you go to the jesus thrift store and buy a lot. you go to big!lots because you have never been to big!lots. then you go home and start drinking.

rinse and repeat. oh in yo face! i am so tired of driving. please don't make me get in a car for a long time. i just came back to newport and i watched the simple life mini marathon and it was flashback to yucca.

s u n 12.28.03 | 12:58 am
don't you forget about me

so i asked for three days off from work. half because i wanted to blow this popsicle stand and run away to yucca with various strangers and various people i know and half because i just do not want to work. even if i didn't end up going to yucca i would still rather sleep around for a few days.

i would lay in my bed half the time and clean my apartment the other half, never leaving the house... unless it was to go to the beach and skateboard.

i think that i have really trashed the carpet in our apartment. i mean, really, it is really awful looking. it is god awful looking. with all the parties that have been thrown and just all the drinking nights added in... i really fucked it up single-handedly out of all my roommates.

so i have decided that it is my turn to just buckle down and fucking rent a steam cleaner and get the muthafukkin' job done already.

isn't my skateboard rad? i think it is the cat's meeeeoow. i am actually feeling much better than i was.. say.. even this morning. i bought two new cds from second spin and tomorrow i shall be seeing my best friends and kidnapping them from burbank and stealing them away for non-stop drinking and sin at shanana's secret hideaway. i am actually really glad that i am at least getting out of newport beach and seeing... hmm, people again. it's healthy, they say.

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