f r i 12.12.03 | 12:43 am
now angel won't you come by me

so things are going unusually well. i passed chemistry! i thought for sure i had failed. but it really fucked with my head and made me want to be super student that actually studies and goes to lecture and shit like that. what a concept. so i've been snapped into line. don't you worry.

i went home for two days and i am in love with burbank. i just love being home and driving by things that i know and seeing my parents and being able to spend time with them. the relationship with my family has never been so good. it's so comforting that that part of my life is...good

my mommy took me to sushi and then we went shopping. i love my mommy. the kitty is back at my house and i love her again. she is sleeping in her little nook i made in my bedside table.

i love my demetra so much. i was with her all day yesterday and she is amazing. i have never met someone that is so much like me and i think that is why we are in love with each other. yeah, we're fucking narcissists. if we get old and are unmarried we should elope in vermont.

i saw collin last night and his friends are so cute. they skate around together and video each other and he showed me little clips tonight. kill bill was awesome. i love lucy liu so much and she is incredibly hot in it. i also fancy the japanese schoolgirl. does anyone else want to see honey just because of jessica alba? okay maybe it's just me.

back to collin. that boy. is so amazing. i can't get over it. i'll be seeing him tomorrow. i'll be makin' zee monies tomorrow and i'll be sleeping in tomorrow cause i ain't in fuckin' school no mo'. word.

et j'ai un nouveau ami qui habite en france. i hope i said that right. 3 years of high school french just does not suffice.

w e d 12.10.03 | 8:06 pm
fuck, you're hot.

so much is happening so fast. i am all done with finals as of today and it does not look so good. kiss dean's honor's list goodbye, tiffany. you are a failure.

but i'm over it. what's done is done. no use in dwelling. so i did some retail therapy with demetra today. yeah, i came home to the valley to visit my parents and loved ones. and it's totally lovely. completely lovely.

i now own leg warmers, fingerless gloves, a tiny wardrobe for a jewelery box and a new skirt. fuck, i'm so bad. retail therapy just always gets to me. i need to open a store called that. i practically own that concept. no one uses it as much as me lately.

i got a pedicure too. with tiny flowers and rhinestones on my toes. my feet have never looked this good. usually i am totally turned off by feet but dizzamn, i look down at my little tens and say wow fuck you're hot, little tens.

so tonight i am meeting collin and company with demetra in the hills of beverly. i can't wait to watch kill bill and what's more, it's free. i just watched reservoir dogs again today. i am on a roll. i see collin when we are back home, i see him when i am at my parents. this boy is all over the map. and i like it.

i dyed my hair too. you love me, huh. i love you too. kisses. winter break has never felt so right. word!

s u n 12.07.03 | 9:43 pm
but baaaaaaaabe

today i had problems. things are going good with a boy thus far. that part of my life is actually in working order. of course it is taking a toll on my studying schedule for my ridiculously hard finals that are worth 50% of my grades.

but it is about give and take after all.

for all of tonight it will be about give. and tomorrow after the final it will be time for some take. taketaketake!

it is nice getting to know someone and finding out that they can feel a lot like you. and it doesn't make me feel nervous, it just makes me feel nice.

i got locked out of my apartment today and my neighbors helped me out. they let me use their phone and drove me to the realtor to pick up the key. some days i am so amazed by all the good that is in this fucked up world. sometimes it is so beautiful that i have to stop and wonder if it is real.

am i really in this bed holding your hand smelling your skin covers tight around the shoulders warm like two eskimos in our furry hats with the cold air far away outside. and it rained last night and this morning while we slept.

i might not sleep tonight because i have to study. the next time that i get to sleep it might be another beautiful one. let's hope let's pray don't go away my pretty baby.

tomorrow we are baking brownies and watching edward scissorhands. ohwhatamigonnadowithyoucollin. you'retrouble. you'reworsethancigarettestiffany. butcigaretteskill. youjustmight...slowly.

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