05.12.02 | 12:54 am
and you, little whore, go to bed.

mother's day dinner with the folks was oh-so-boring. a crowded chinese restaurant with two weddings going on in both the banquet rooms. everyone screaming across the lazy susans in chinese. my mom has to steal the show, of course. my left ear hurt and i got up with a headache. my sister didn't go because she was tired . but oh no, not too tired to go see spiderman with art. oh no, of course not.

so i got home around 9 and called robert but he was out and about. and so i was just alone wishing i had somewhere to be. and if i had pulled things together quickly, i still could have left. the oppurtunity just wasn't there. so i did nothing. i finished the birdhouse and wanted to do something productive. but i did nothing.

i made myself a drink rather. malibu and coke and smiles all around. eyes wide shut came on at 10. watched all of that. i'd seen it before in bits and pieces and now it makes a whole lot more sense. quite entertaining for all 165 minutes. i hope my marriage, if and when, isn't as... oh, i don't know. "there is one more very important thing we have to do as soon as possible." "what?" "fuck."

05.10.02 | 9:21 pm
boo.

tube top day!



 

05.10.02 | 9:02 pm
nobody wants to buy the whole truck when you're giving out the popsicles for free.

it's noticable. i don't think you have to be pretty or anything. once you start taking off the clothes, you get attention. it's more effective than ringing your own bell. this is my favorite picture today. happy!

05.09.02 | 8:08 pm
do it for nepal

before going downstairs to dinner tonight i filled my glass with peach schnapps and filled the rest with orange juice. it was so yummy. it was mixed cocktail on the deck of a cruise ship with umbrellas with foreign poolboy yummy. and i grinned, chopsticks in hand, because i had a secret. i love having a secret... i can just never keep it for very long. i'm so easy. today i was watching oprah [yes, i have nothing to do, i watch daytime tv and tend to my hobbies, my pasttimes, if you will] and it was about nepalese girls sold into slavery for $35-$75 a year. they never see their families ever again and they go into these homes where they are often sexually and physically abused. and this great woman sets up homes in nepal full of children. she pays for them to go to school and gives their family a piglet which is worth more than selling their children to slavery. the girls can eventually find work for themselves and will have less children and educate the ones they have. i just thought that was great. it made me feel like i should do something for nepalese children. it makes me want to join the peace corps or something. or just donate a piglet. chris said i'm beautiful. he said if he had an asian girl to tickle he would be gone for weeks. i feel like i'm some kind of hot item to sell on the black market.

05.07.02 | 4:09 pm
my brain hurts

calculus makes me want to vomit. i had an epiphany beginning my second free response... not the oh that's how it goes but more of the why am i taking this test? it was depressing. and that's an understatement. this test has ruined my mindset today. i went home to lay down and eat bad food. i feel like i just got dumped or something. so i guess this means my high school days are numbered. graduation used to be this big event that i've been waiting for. and i guess it is, but it loses its sparkle the closer it comes. everyone graduates, it's nothing special. i'm really not as excited as i should be about all this rubbish.

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